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You know how I always tell you that you don't need to be perfect? Well, I need to take my own advice today.
I've been feeling so down about the state of my house, because I feel like I've never really caught up after being so terribly sick all summer. I've gotten some rooms cleaned thoroughly, but others are still suffering (our bedroom - scary), and I just feel scatterbrained and disorganized, which I really hate. It's not that I don't want to clean everything up, it's that physically, I can't. I'm just too tired all the time, and lately, my ribs ache all day, every day.
It's very frustrating to feel all nesty and gooey about the baby, and not be able to do anything about it. I did buy newborn diapers today, and I took one out of the package, and awwwww....! I forgot how tiny they are. The whole thing fit in the palm of my hand! Now, I feel really "clucky," as my dear Aussie friends would say.
Now, at 30 weeks, I'm starting to feel the changes in my body that tell me the baby will soon be here - contractions after bursts of activity (fortunately, they always settle down when I'm at rest - I'm pulling for NO MORE BEDREST during this pregnancy), and remember my previous woes about my chest? Well, to say that I don't even recognize myself anymore is really an understatement. I didn't think they could get much bigger, but every time I get in the shower, and catch sight of myself in the mirror, I almost pass out from shock. Seriously, I could be in movies (the naughty kind, I mean. Not that I watch those kinds of movies, or would even consider being in one. I'm just trying to make a point here).
Fortunately, my husband is still just pleased as punch about the whole thing. If I come to bed wearing a tank top, his eyes practically spring right out of his head, and I have to scoop his jaw up off the floor.
Also, you know how some people buy a soda to drink while shopping? Not me. Today I bought a quart of chocolate milk, and guzzled the entire thing while wandering around the grocery store. I was getting some serious looks, probably because I had a milk mustache, but I didn't even care. Seriously, what is it with me and milk? During pregnancy, I just can't get enough of it, and this pregnancy makes me want to drink gallons. The other night, I drank a 16-ounce glass at dinner, and asked my husband to bring me some more. He filled my glass half full, and I looked at him like, "HELLO! What's this?" He said, "Don't worry, I'll get you more. I just have to open a new jug!"
My husband has been sweetly supportive of all my weird cravings, which always seem to hit about 9:00 P.M., requiring him to run into town and buy me something. For a while now, I've wanted butterscotch pudding, but a few nights ago, I needed cake...and he actually baked me a yellow cake with chocolate frosting. At 8:30 P.M. God bless him.
So, to summarize, my house is falling apart, I want to sleep 20 hours out of every 24, this kid has his feet permanently wedged in my ribcage, my boobs are so big that I'm starting to look like a cartoon version of myself, and I'm considering the purchase of my own dairy cow.
I need some serious cheering up.
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Heather, I am so sorry for that you are feeling so horrid. But thanks for sharing. I chuckled through the whole part about the whole new boobie you! DH's jaw on the floor almost had me on the floor laughing. And I loved the description of you chugging chocolate milk at the store! Bless your heart it has been a LONG almost nine months for you, but thanks for sharing! Your blog always brightens my day!
**I visit an older lady in my neighborhood. She is a widow with a very spotless home. She told me to not be jealous of that, she is the only one there and she misses those chaotic days of raising children! So remember, the day will come when your home stays spotless, but those will be the days when your kids are all grown and gone and all you have to do is putter around and wish the kids were still at home!! Until then, you are filling your home with lots of activity and lots of love!! Cleaning will always be there, kids won't!! ((((Hugs)))) You're amazing!!
I <3 you so much, Heather! I know you don't really feel like your self lately, but just keep in mind that you have just 10 short weeks to go! Remember when you were "only" 10 weeks along??? The time will pass before you know it! Also, don't subsequent pregnancies usually result in babies being born BEFORE their due-date??? As long as he's healthy, of course...but doesn't that sound nice??? We could always be hopeful for that, right? And just think of all the calcium you are providing Daniel - He's going to be strong like Super Man!!! :o)
Can you ask the girls to help you with some chores to take some of the pressure off of you?
Jackson LOVES chores (I'm totally blessed!!!) - especially vacuuming and dusting! But for some strange reason, he hates to clean his room. I don't get it at all!
I'm in the same boat with you; I am currently 32 weeks along with twins (our 1st and 2nd children; one of which has neatly imbedded itself into my left ribcage) and I, too, can't seem to get enough milk these days :)
Hang in there! I love reading your blog! It's very inspirational and motivating! Thanks! :)
When this baby is born, you are going to look back at this post and laugh!!! Oh Heather, you honestly are a hoot. (like I imagine we all were as we trudged through pregnancy...you just verbalize it better!)
I completely understand baking a cake a 8:30 at night (sometimes Tatum and I need to do this just because of our time of the month and no pregnancy is even involved), I understand the complete relief that your husband "got this" and did it for you, and I totally know about wanting to drink milk when you are pregnant. I grew up in a house where everyone was allergic to milk except for me, so drinking milk as a beverage was UNHEARD of. You just didn't do it. We barely had it in our fridge. I have no desire EVER to drink a cup full of it.....NOW, when I was pregnant! OMGosh! I wanted CHOCOLATE milk. To drink. By the gallon. I absolutely would of been the chick walking beside you in the stored drinking the milk with you, LOL!
And the boobs. You don't think they can get bigger...remember engorgement after the baby is born? Oh My. I am kind of flat chested anyways, so my husband I think had a HEARTATTACK when he saw me. I looked like a pornstar with stretchmarks. {{shudder}}
Thank goodness they love us , eh?
Loved the post. Hang in there...your getting SO CLOSE!
Remember - there is a season for all things!
Right now it happens to be a milk guzzling, boobs of death, relaxed house season. Hah. Everyone should be so lucky! (giggle)
Oh how I miss my pregnancy boobs. Speaking of cows I had a big black cow wander into my backyard yesterday. Should have gone out there and expressed you some, lol!
house falling apart-check
wanting to sleep-check
feet in ribcage-not internally, but an occasional externally when I have a late night visitor
big boobs-check
dairy cow-make it a coke machine-check
Okay, at least you have an excuse! I'm all those things and not pregnant! I've heard a lot lately about the seasons of life and I think I'm just going through a worn out season.
Hire a friend to help around the house (it's worth it for your sanity), drink some milk and take a nap! You're worth it!
Hang in there, only 10 more weeks to go. Just remember, this is just a season.
This too shall pass! And soon enough, you'll have that little bundle snuggled up to you.
bless your soul:) you make me smile and WOW...you have a very supportive husband!!!
10 weeks to go...you are no longer required to count up but rather the countdown now begins!
I totally sympathize with your late stage of "nothing is right with me" pregnancy. I laughed when I read the part about your drinking chocolate milk in the store. The last time I was pregnant, I bought and drank an entire gallon of chocolate milk in an afternoon. My poor husband went to the fridge to get some and asked what happened to the milk. When I told him I drank it he was torn between utter shock and complete amazement that one human could consume so much chocolate milk in such a short amount of time. To this day, 9 years later, he still reminds me of it every time we have a gallon of chocolate milk around. He warns the kids to get their share before "mommy drinks it all." So, on a more positive note, at least you are getting your calcium. ;)
I'm sorry you're feeling so discouraged! You're in the home stretch now! You'll make it! It's okay if your house isn't perfectly clean right now. No one probably cares but you. Mine isn't great either, and I don't have an excuse, lol! The baby must really love milk!
{{HUGS}}
Oh Heather! You sound exactly like me when i was pregnant with my son - heartburn and everything!! Had to laugh about your husband's eyes popping out of his head - I'm afraid that happens here too!! I have to have a milkshake every afternoon before the school run....
Hang in there...thinking of you from Aussie land.
Your husband is so sweet. Mine used to get up in the middle of the night every night to make me a drink of warm milk because I would get really thristy but water would make me feel sick (as did tea) and a cold drink made me too cold. His life actually got easier after our daughter was born.
Hi Heather, you have one wonderful husband baking you a cake in the evening like that. Just think of the joy once DJ arrives and all the aches and pains will be forgotten. I do have to admit that I did chuckle reading your post this morning. You are almost there stay positive. We are all here to help you through your tough times.
Ah milk. I couldn't get enough milk either. Any kind of dairy really.
I remember having to sit in the floor and scoot around to be able to pick up Big Girl's toys when I was pregnant with Little Guy.
Don't be afraid to ask for help from friends or family members. I wouldn't hesitate to help my friend clean her house or bring her dinner or babysit for awhile if I knew she needed it.
Too bad I don't live closer.
Hang in there.
Dearest Heather -
I wish you could be on this end of your blog. It would certainly entertain your soul and lift your spirits and, trust me, you would no longer be discouraged.
I love the honesty in your humor. I don't know many women who would venture into that territory and I so appreciate that you do.
The big boobs is not abnormal with a boy. I had them with my first - a boy - and my last, also a boy. Yep, so large they did not belong on the rest of my body - even my large pregnant body.
This, too, will pass and soon there will be a beautiful baby in your arms. Love, Kim
I've got some things that might brighten your day.
*I bought some Christmas candy, and apparently my little guy has a new fixation with Reese's miniatures. We all layed in bed together watching a movie and apparently my husband and I dozed off before little guy, and he snuck out of the bed and had climbed on the weight bench to reach the candy bowl on our kitchen bar. My phone went off from my sister calling and we realized our missing person, and my husband went out to the living room to find him up to his ears in chocolate and foil rappers.
*Not to mention he is a couple of months from being 2, and he wants to go potty outside of the diaper. So I find him often ripping off the diaper, and running to squat in his room. I have showed him the potty, and he just thinks his room is better for some reason. I guess he's marking his territory.
I hope you get to feeling better. The doctor has me on some medicine for anxiety lately, and I'm less anxious, but more tired. I really need to find a happy medium, and after much prayer and coffee today, I finally got all the tasks done in my home that needed accomplishing. Pray for me? I'll have you included in mine as well!
OH Heather - Let the house fall apart - soon you'll get the nesting instinct & it will be all spotless & in it's perfect place again!
I can only imagine how cute those nappies are - my friend here just had a baby last friday & I got to visit & hold him on Saturday - so tiny, so cute - I'm so clucky!
Glad your hubby is so obliging of your cravings.
Well you're quite funny when you need cheering up! I'm sure this post cheered others up! You're too cute!
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